How often do you commune? How
often does your soul thirst? If tears do not come to you at all, do not
commune. Every fifteen days is good. But that must be determined by your
spiritual father.
Do not speak much. Restrain your
tongue. Love silence. If you become accustomed to it, you will no longer want
to speak. Such is the beauty of silence.
Also love prayer. One man prayed
the whole night. The words of his prayer came to him one after another without
difficulty.
Have joy! Let joy and sorrow be
your guests, but not despair. To despair, close the door! A Christian must be
neither cowardly nor despairing.
Others tell you what they know.
They live their own life, they know their own life, and that is what they speak
to you about. Your life they do not live, do not know, do not love! So then,
since they do not know your language, how can you expect them to speak to you!
Do not get angry. They will mock
you, you will suffer. But do not fear. They offer you pepper—give them sugar.
Think to yourself: “I have no pepper; I have sugar, and I give sugar.”
In every prayer, you must have a
tearful knot. And when compunction comes upon you, do not speak of it anywhere,
for it is a divine gift—lest you lose it!
Listen to the preacher, but do
not draw too near. We are all human. You may notice weaknesses and say, “He
says one thing and does another.”
Do not become angry. Sweeten
others with your sugar—that is, with your kind word.
Do not offer instruction, for
teaching without the other’s will becomes hostility and turns into sin—both for
the one who hears and does not act, and for you who become distressed and
troubled.
Love compunction; bring to mind
the causes that will bring you to tears.
Say to the other only as much as
you believe he can bear, no more.
When you give alms, do not
examine the person to whom you give, whether they are good or bad. Almsgiving
is a great thing; it blots out a multitude of sins.
Tears at the time of prayer are a
sign of love for our Savior.
If you have the fear of the Lord,
you have learned theology. If you do not have the fear of the Lord, you have
learned a craft in order to make a living.
Building with dry stones is not
good. Mud is needed, and lime is needed too. So it is with prayer: without
tears, it is not prayer. Tears are necessary—otherwise no benefit remains from
the prayer.
You will do all you can for your
children, for in the next life Christ will ask of you either your children
saved, or the wounds on your knees from your abundant prayer. Parents,
unfortunately, do not realize the responsibility they bear for their children.
Every person has some gift. Find
their gift and praise them. Praise is needed (for encouragement), and kindness
and love. Then, even if the other is not very good, he is reproached by the
honor, the praise, the love shown to him, and becomes better.
To a clergyman: As much as you
can, avoid the outside. Shut yourself in your room. Press your mind until it
opens, that you may see spiritual light. Say to yourself, “When will I reach my
room and shut myself in?” Study, pray. If you are not strengthened, how will
you strengthen others? And the world is running, seeking to satisfy the thirst
of the soul through the Church, through its instruments—through the cassock!
What will you give if you have nothing, and how will you have anything if you
do not ask it from God? Labor in prayer and study, and you will be
strengthened.
Have humility. When it rains, the
water does not remain on the peaks or the mountains, but flows down to the
plain. Humble people receive grace, bear fruit, and are blessed.
Are you a priest? Be careful—you
do not belong to yourself. You are like a needle in the hand of God. Be good;
do not be like a rusty needle that cannot do its work. That is, for
yourself—weaknesses, passions, etc.—you must not exist. The cassock, your covenant,
is with God. Let it shake you to the core, and say: What does this mean? What
is it saying to me? Yes—to love God and to labor in what He has appointed me to
do.
Be watchful. The devil uses all
kinds of ways to harm the clergyman, for from just one holy clergyman,
thousands can benefit and be saved; and likewise, from one who does not
struggle, thousands can perish.
The clergyman must be like the
many-eyed ones—that is, to have eyes everywhere, to be blameless, strong in
mind, wise, holy.
After the words of the
Services—Compline, etc.—pray to God also with simple words, with your own
words, about your problems, your pain, as though He were before you and you see
Him. These painful and compunctionate words are like kindling for the fire to
catch—that is, the longing for God. And then come the tears.
Greek source:
http://users.uoa.gr/~nektar/orthodoxy/gerontikon/gerwn_ierwnymos_aigina.htm
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