St. Theophan the Recluse
Last time, I described to you the
entire process of the transition from a simple thought to a passionate desire,
and from there to the sinful act. However, things do not always develop as
slowly as they appeared in my description. Often—if not most of the time—all
the phases follow one another lightning-fast. Thus, before the thought has even
had time to properly appear, the act is already carried out. This happens
especially in the case of spoken words. You cannot—and indeed need not—analyze
all these unpredictable and successive incidents. Do only this: when you
perceive a passionate movement, immediately turn against it with the weapon of anger.
How would you react if a criminal attacked and struck you? You would strike him
back with all your strength. In the same way, you should react when an evil
thought attacks you: strike it with anger. Of course, just as the criminal does
not always flee when you strike him, so too the thought does not always vanish
when you get angry with it. This is because, in the war of thoughts, demons are
often involved—who, as you know, are stubborn and unyielding. No matter how
much you get angry with them, they do not back down. Therefore, besides anger,
you must use another weapon against them. What is that weapon?
Tell me, what does the victim of
a criminal attack do if he does not succeed in driving him away with blows? He
calls for help. Then the officers of the law respond to his call, rush in, and
save him. This is what must also happen in the battle with the passions. You
must get angry against them, but also call upon divine help: “Lord, help me!
Jesus Christ, Son of God, save me!” “My God, hear me and send me Your help!
Lord, do not delay to help me!” (Psalm 69:2).
When you take refuge in the Lord,
do not look at what is happening within you. Keep your attention fixed on Him
and entreat Him for help. With His name, scourge the enemy, as one saint says
(Saint John of Sinai, The Ladder, Step 20, paragraph 6). For, as the
psalmist says, “The Lord is near to all who call upon Him in truth. He fulfills
the desires of those who fear Him; He hears their supplication and saves them”
(Psalm 144:18–19). He Himself promises to whoever calls upon Him with hope in
their hour of need: “I will deliver him, because he has hoped in Me. I will
protect him, because he has known My name. He shall call upon Me, and I will
answer him. I am with him in trouble; I will deliver him and glorify him”
(Psalm 90:14–15). Therefore, with anger and with prayer, you will always
confront effectively the passions that war against you.
You can, in addition to these
things, do something else that the holy Fathers recommend: as soon as you
perceive the stirring of some passion in your soul, expose—or rather,
remind—yourself of its shamefulness. If, for example, a thought of pride
offends you, begin to say within yourself: “Pride is abominable. Are you not
ashamed, being dust and ashes, and yet you swell with arrogance? Reflect on
your sins…” and other such things. In this way, you will neutralize the thought
by devising counter-thoughts that suppress pride. However, this antithetical method
often proves ineffective. Even when we understand the shamefulness of the
passionate thought, we still keep it in our mind just long enough for it to
defile our soul, stirring the emotions and awakening desire. More effective is
the method of immediately fleeing to God for help. When we do not engage in
verbal warfare with the passion, but rather call upon the Lord with fear,
reverence, hope, and faith, the thought departs from the mind. For a mind fixed
on the Lord cannot sustain a passionate thought. And if that thought was
suggested by the noetic enemy, only through invoking and relying on the power
of God can you drive it away. For no human being is stronger than the demons.
The following story is
characteristic and instructive: An elder was living in stillness in the desert.
One day, the demons attacked him. They seized him and began to drag him
violently, striving to pull him out of his cell and drive him away from the
desert. The ascetic resisted with all his strength, but in vain. Soon they had
dragged him to the door. A little further and they would have taken him
outside. Then, faced with ultimate danger, he cried out in supplication: “Lord
Jesus Christ, why have You forsaken me? Help me!” Immediately, the Lord
appeared and put the demons to flight. Then He turned to the elder and said: “I
did not abandon you. But because you were trying to manage the demons on your
own, without calling upon Me, that is why I did not come to help you. Call for
My help, and you will have it forever.”
The above incident was a lesson
for the ascetic, as it is also for all of us. Instead of arguing with
passionate thoughts, it is better to flee to the Lord in prayer. This is the
way all those who wisely struggle against the passions act. Abba John the Dwarf
used to say: “I am like a man sitting beneath a great tree, and I see many wild
beasts and serpents coming toward me. And when I cannot confront them, I
quickly climb up the tree and am saved. In the same way, I sit in my cell and
see the passionate thoughts attacking me. And when I cannot contend with them,
I flee to God with prayer and am delivered from the enemy.” (Sayings of the
Fathers, John the Dwarf, 12).
I wrote to you previously, as you
will remember, to pray with the mind in the heart. What does this mean? It
means that you must gather your mind from its dispersion into the surrounding
world—a dispersion that takes place through the senses—bring it down into the
heart, and from there raise it up to God in prayer. If our mind, remaining in
the heart, were unceasingly fixed on the Lord with fear, reverence, and faith,
we would never be in danger from passionate thoughts, emotions, and desires. Unfortunately,
however, our mind is distracted from the Lord, departs from the heart, and
through the senses wanders back and forth. Then the passionate thoughts invade,
awakening corresponding emotions and sinful desires. There is the battle! Who
is to blame? Ourselves—no one else. If we did not allow the mind to slip away
and wander, we would avoid the battle. But what is done is done. Even if it is
late, let us flee once more to the Lord and call upon Him for help.
And the following instructive
parable also belongs to Abba John the Dwarf (op. cit., saying 16):
In a certain city lived a
beautiful harlot who had many lovers. One day, a nobleman went to her and said,
“Give me your word that you will leave your sinful life, and I will take you as
my wife.” She agreed, and the nobleman took her into his house. Her former
lovers began to search for her. When they learned where she was, they said
among themselves, “We must bring her back to us. But if we show up at the
house, the nobleman will see us and harm us. Let us go to the back of the house
and whistle to her in a signal she’ll recognize. She will know it is us and
come down. That way, no one will be able to accuse us.” Indeed, the woman heard
the whistle and understood who it was. But immediately, she plugged her ears
and ran into the inner chamber, shutting the doors behind her. The harlot
symbolizes the soul. Her lovers are the passions and men. The nobleman is
Christ. The inner chamber is the soul’s eternal dwelling. Those who whistle to
the soul are the evil demons. And the whistles are the impulses of passionate
thoughts, emotions, and desires. But the soul escapes them, always fleeing to
the Lord.
Remember this story and act
according to what it allegorically teaches you. You will see how quickly peace
will be restored within you when it is disturbed by the uprising of the
passions.
May the grace of God be with you!
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